0105 time to change myself

this few day
almost everytime stay at home
feel bore
and do the same thing everyday
bt is almost start my f6 life soon~^^
i nt sure that i can make it or nt
i hope i could change and start a new me
after back from plkn i do learn many thing
and i hope i can set all the positive thing that i learn and set it in my mind
hm..
i do jealous with my fren for their college life
i wish i can
i wan to take hotel management or hospitality management
or maybe a chef
i like it
bt i can't
i hv no this ability and i dun wan 2 waste my parent money
many ppl ask me borrow from ptptn
bt i dun wan
maybe im s2p
bt..i jz dun like 2 debt
hm..
i jz hate my life
i hate everything
i hate wat im choose
i hate wat i miz
i hate wat i did
and i hate wat i decide
bt nw is too late to me 2 change everything
i only can do is 2 face it and try 2 make it rite
i hv 2 start the new me
and
started 2 think positive
no more keep say sorry
no more humble
no more playing too much
i hv2 manage my time
and study 4 my future
i regret 4 my spm result
i must do it..